Heart wont beat again...

Tonight,
Was ledge (L)

I wish i could go back to being 7 years old again...

Best lyrics ever written
I want the sundays,
The Fairy house,
The potions,
The muffin board,
The fake news shows,
The memories
I love you
I miss the Old times.

I used to think i love change.
But god i hate it
Nothing settles
Nothing stays
Why am i wasting Fucking tears over this
over
YOU
i let you go
Ive let you go

You okaiii hunniii?...

WELL DONE.
I'm so proud
you won, again

I really hope your happy
that you came along and threw the newly settled leaves in the air.
I hope you enjoy the fact that you've torn the group apart
and i hope you have fun :)

I hate you :)
always have, always will
because shes a life ruiner,
she ruins peoples lives :)

Sit me down, Tell me it will be fine...

One last post before bed
I look at the unfilled out forms on my desk ,
my heart leaps and my stomach turns

oh my god its realisation
what if its too late
why is everyone so organised
I'm LAZY
and i'm gunna pay for it.
i know i will
just give me the easy route?
a way out?
a place where my opinion is valid
where everyone listens and no one cares
i wish the forms were filled,
the check was paid
i wish it was that easy
oh how i wish it was that easy.

So much trouble caused,
one place causing so much trouble.
FORGET

just forget.

I need to find someone beautiful.
who can clear this mixed up head.

Cheating gets it faster...

I swear,
the only reason I'm here is because you think you 'never see me'

and so you've decided to trap me in this fucking house and not let me out
its been five fucking days,
and no i don't want my friends to come here because I'm so hacking BORED OF THIS PLACE.
i hate it when you do this to me
STOP TREATING ME LIKE A CHILD

you piss me off so much
just stop talking to me
i don't even care.

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Oh my god.

I wont be the one to dissapoint you anymore...

Please dont ask me what the following blog is about.
i just need to get this out of my head.

I just watched it back
and thought I'm pure
shit.
Like awful
what am i supposed to do with that eh?
nothing.
get nowhere and do nothing.

STOOPID
HACKIN SWINE.

I'm in a bad mood.
this thing annoys me when you click on blog and it opens in a new tab

IF I WANTED A NEW TAB I WOULD HAVE OPENED ONE.

oh dear god. get me out of this house.

Tired of being sick and tired...

I belive its sleep time...
My blogs like twittttter
x

17 Again
National Treasure
Sixth sense
The Clique
John Tucker Must Die

Oh dear Flik.

Your lipstick, his collar don't bother angel i know exactly what goes on...

Im soo quarantined right now,
LET ME OUTTTTTT D:
i really do love Amy Duffy
She is a wonderful person :)

I can see this week being boring
But Saturday Mumma Abbott is gun' take me to bista
and im gun' get some Ralph Lauren (L)
Yum

I think Stealth is my new word :)
Love you non infested friends
Swine (L)

Wind me up and watch me go...

I AM QUARANTINED. :|

Theres something bout the night, and the way it hides all the things i like...

I dont think ive eveer been so ill.
I feel like death warmed up.
:|

'Cough Cough' Im sick, BOO YOU WHORE.

Im ill
and i gotta pretend im not later
so i can go munch on chinese food
:)
yum times
HALF TERM BAYBE
no school for a week
im freee ;)

Where did you go, where did you go?

Pretty teach me wrong from right...

Today something amazing happened,
So we got basically shunned right?
and it was awful and i was needing a face to punch and it was horrible.
so my girlies and me went to thew hall onto the magical piano.
And we were having a really a really amazing, angry in depth conversation, filled with prophecy's
And that's when Cheney started playing
And it was this beautiful,
summery perfect piece of music,

And i suddenly had this rush of emotion.
and thoughts of summer, and Hyde and picnics and everything being perfect.
And i started crying.

And then everything was clear

It was amazing

Cheney Parsons, if you read this
i want you to know how much you mean to me.
You are my shining light.
I love you.

I miss you...

Darling,
WE WIN
and you fail
though you attempt to win was funny :)
becuase you lost
ooo i love people :D
YOU ARE THE HOLEY CHEESE TO OUR SAUSAGES
:D i love the magical piano :)

Nothing but your Tee Shirt on...

Coz i wanna be close to you,
and i miss you,
and i miss you.

No matter what i say or do, i still feel you here, till the moment im gone...

Something always brings me back to you,
it never takes to long
you hold me without touching,
keeping without chains.

I think that the face the thought of someone can makes me feel safe,
and feel secure is beautiful.

Cheney parsons is wonderful,
Shes on my wave length, and its a hard one to be on :).
she makes me wish i had Bernard's watch, just like id pretend i did when i was little.
and i could take a moment, of utter security, and just pause it.
and i could stay in that moment forever,
like in music :)
i love you Cheney,
Ive found my missing piece.

I hate how i cant read you right now,,
You make me feel a million foot tall
and i love that
i love how you make me feel,
i love how safe i feel around you.
and im sorry for everything.

You loved me coz im fragile,
i thought that i was strong.

Felicity.

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I cant stop ,
Oh i cant stop.
Im going Out in flames.

Im so tired,

I want to sleep for ever,
and yet i dont
becuase if i do, i cant have you

Happy tears,
There like tiny drops off summer,
falling,

Your breath slows, and you take a moment to stop.

Breathe,

Pause.

Look around you,
its beautiful here,
and darling i know you don't see it,
Stop
Breathe
Pause

because its you,
your my summer.
So please,
keep falling.

You are my light,

You get that feeling,
its crushing,
raging,

It pierces you deep and makes your chest go tight,
your breathing is stuttered and short.
You gasp,
a tear;
your underwater,
falling deeper,

And you cant reach the surface.
Until one, tiny piece of light
reaches you
and rips you back to the surface.
With strength unimaginable,
beautiful.
You are my shining light.

- For you, Cheney ♥

Today was so immense,
fullstopped

WHAT ARE YOU DOING
gett ouuttt
ruinn everything then

Tired of being what you want me to be...

I keep getting this sudden rush of emotion,
Like i want to laugh completely crazily and then cry for hours

Anddd i know why
and i dont like it at all
Gunna get a punching bag with your face on it
:)
FUCK ITTTTTT
all offf ittt
seriously, i wont know these people in 10 years
so fuck you all.
ha :)

Minus my girls, and a few others, there stinking with me,
the rest of you, fuck you all.

And soon, your all gunna wanna be like this,
and were gunna tell yuo to get out when you come running,
EMOTION,
its weird :)

You loved me coz im fragile...

I thought that i was strong,

You touched me for a little while,

Now all my fragile strength has gone.

I'm stuck,
In a glass room.

I see figures and shapes on the outside, but there reflections are blurred,
I beat my fists against the glass trying to breakthrough,

to get their attention,

but i receive no response.

Looks of disgust are thrown in my direction as i try and breakout,
I am told i have to be happy, And cannot carry on how i have been.
Well, I'm through pretending.
And i will shatter this glass if your not careful.

P.s- I have nothing to write here.

I cba to blog, i have to be in the mood, and im not init Blahh Im so wining this fight :) ha

Threatened?

-HA no.

I got my shhooot picturesss

Your fingertips across my skin....

Ive been having panic attacks.

I miss you love...

Woww :D
Its all changing,

And its soo good :)
I think everythings good right now :)

Ahh happy :)

I love you...

My mind is dead.

Its you...

I had the most wonderful day :)

I got my pointe shoes,
I ate the yummiest waffle in covent garden, which might i add, Is possibly the most colourful place in the world.
I listened to mood music,
We asked for it to rain, and it did
I drunk a Starbucks and had humous.
I laughed,
I laughed some more
and then some more,
We thanked pie men.
And there was just so much more,

I cant even put into words how much I wanted timer to just stand still when we were sat on the cobbled streets.
It was like, we could have forgotten everything else and just sat there, watching everyone. London is such a colourful place, its somewhere you can be yourself, and no one will take a second glance,
Somewhere you Can be yourself.

Ahh I cant wait to be living in the city.

Love you whorecakes.

Love?♥

Baby make it too me...

Last night was so good, I'm not gunna lie
I laughed so much :)

We actually suck at watching movies, and i made myself sound like a total tard
but i dont care :)

Cozzz the people are amazing :)
I beat Harley at plank ACHIEVEMENT MUCH.

But i didnt beat Ryan at clapping push ups .evil1. TOUCHE.
:)

I thought open season was over the hedge, and didnt realise it wasnt till the moovieee finished :D

So tbh yesterday was good :D

IM GOING ON/EN POINTE BITCHES :D
Yes mashed up feet here i come ;)

So im going to get my shoes today
and im buzzing :D

LOVE YOU CHICKS - i feel like loving this shitty world today :)
Free hugs sign im thinking :)

Love?♥

Fuck you. Fuck you very very much.

I have teeth marks in my thumb

and i need to hit something.


Cheney where are you :(

I know in my heart its not you....

So beautiful,

Ive been walking through the city,
and its alright,
its alright.

And Ive been walking through the city
and its all gunna be fine tonight.

Everything is changing
my darling,
were falling.

And everything is changing,
just tell me, can we stall this?

Where do we go from here?
Where do we go from here?
Where do we go from here?
Where do we go from here?

Come and run with me, come and run with me
I don't wanna loose you in the lights, loose you in the lights
Take my hand and hold your breath,
Its a start its a new beginning darling.

You've been talking about freedom
Freedom, you don't need it.

Ive been watching you sleep,
Watching you sleeping.

Tossing and turning,
Dreaming and screaming.

You've been talking about freedom
Freedom, you don't need it.

Where do we go from here?
Where do we go from here?
Where do we go from here?
Where do we go from here?

Come and run with me, come and run with me
I don't wanna loose you in the lights, loose you in the lights
Take my hand and hold your breath,
Its a start its a new beginning darling.

Open up your eyes,
Screaming at me,

Open up your mind,
I'm screaming at you.

Open up your eyes,
Screaming at me,

Open up your mind,
I'm screaming at you.

Come and run with me,
I don't wanna loose you in the lights,
Take my hand and hold your breath,
Its a start its a new beginning darling.

Come and run with me, come and run with me
I don't wanna loose you in the lights, loose you in the lights
Take my hand and hold your breath,
Its a start its a new beginning darling.


♥

Its a start, Its a new begging darling...

So yesterday
me and Cheney wrote something gasp worthy :)

Her piano skills, and my lyrics go together like, likeee,
two things that go really, really well together.

So yesterday, a child in the world of music was born ♥
And one dayy yourr all gunna wanna see it :)

the lyrics will be up when i can be fucked to type them.

Everythings good.

Love?♥

P.s- Saturday ♥

Somehow, everythings gunna fall, right into place...

Somethings there :)


And its making me smile :)

Love?♥

Wish youd never looked at me that way...

Stop talking to me about her.

Laaaaaaaaa
Today was okay :)
it was weirdly ho0t for the fact it was raininginging :)
I'm hungry, feeelinng a rice cake :)

I WANT CHOCOLATE SO BAD D:


Love?♥

When i caught myself, I had to stop myself...

Can you just fucking hurry up and ask :|

I know i need to make up my mind soon,
Rather than loose this.

I don't know what i want (8)

♥

Defence is paper thin...

So who knows,

i might have this problem,

But i have my girls, and there more amazing than they know.

I love you all,
thank you for everything over these years

You wont ever know what you did, but you all did it.

I'm finally happy in who i am, and its thanks to you.

I love you all.
♥

Separates always better when there's feeling involved...

Lets be honest, maybe if you'd actually done what you wanted,

taken control,
taken a risk,

maybe you wouldn't feel how you do now.

And things might be different.
But you didn't.

So its all your fault.

I hope you have fun.

-

My neck is hurting from breakdancing. Its not right to stand on your head. lets be honest.


I need to talk to cheney.

Love?♥

p.s-Fuck you.

Tonight was good,

I missed cheney
And the films were crap :)
but i liked the company,
the people were funny and ,although i got slapped by pizza. It wass fun :)

Yes slapped by pizza.

Flik- makes a comment to Harley
Harley-Are you mocking me?
Flik- laughs
Harley- SLAPS FLIK IN THE FACE WITH A SLICE OF PIZZA.

anyway :)
i laughed and got it of f:P
it was rather amusing tbh.


And Kiri was there to help me clean it off, shes helped alot of people clean things eh kayleigh ;)

weell...
my head isnt any clearer than it was, but i dont mind, becuase maybe some things are supposed to tie you up in knots :)
And sometimes i think, if something menna happen it will happen. But maybe i better grab hold of the reigns for a little while, see where it takes me :)

Contis wass amazing, as per usual :)

Ive been up for 17 hours and believe its time to sleep.
Night losers


Love?♥

-p.s, i hate it when your hurting

So maybe...

Your gunna be the one that saves me...

"Desicions, Desions."

Chances ive taken, and chances lost.
And it all leaves us with regret right?
and regret is bitter.

And when your bitter, its just not good.
Cause it leads to you thinking about too much
and then you wonder


What would have happened if?...

And im thinking that alot lately.


Love?♥

I lie a little more, baby im helpless...

Mmmm soo the last few days have been shit
but i think im goo dnow :)

Last night wasnt great, once again haha
i sometimes think that i should set my computer alight,
but pffft no.


Jamiiesss on saturday :) it should beee goooowedddd
My brain is so dead


Hoping tommorow will sort it out a bit,
or so i preyy it will :)


I tire of people so quickly, i know it isnt good and that i shouldnt but i cant help it :/ few people i wont EVER got bored with
coz there lovely
♥

I got IDA in honk me and kiri are best feiends MAH :D

I cant wait for danicing tommorw
it makes me soo happy :)
and i alwasys come home with a clearer headd coaz i dotn think about any crap for a whole 9 hours :)

Allkrightt chickassss
Im writing lyrics atm,
mstly to venbt but who knowss somthing good could come of this :)


Ahahah i wish people wouldnt talk to me sometimes, like if you wanna kjnow something just ask, SNEAKY WHORE :)

Love?♥

-you are my band aid.

Dont you know who you are? Your my shooting star...

YOU MAKE MY BRAIN HURT
like seriously


I need to start making decisions

Coz this sucks.
And its just going to keep repeating itsself
OVERRR
AND
OVERR


and dont talk to me for that reason. Your an idiot, and no i will not talk to you.
I love my girls ♥

Love?♥

So i guess ive never been one to have the perfect best friend

Ive always been shortchanged,
Short tempered, moody, cut throat. Bitch.

But i no longer have this.
I have amazing friends.

Miss cheney parsons, You are truly wonderful. Im not gunna lie your confident as anything. So i got home yesterday and i just sat there crying. and you were there for me, and i dont think youll ever know how much that meant.
Ive felt like i was dropping, but you know how to pick me back up. And one day ill do the same for you, you can take my word for that ♥ And when were living it big in the city we wont ever get too lost in the lights for each other. I love you.

I guess its amazing to know that you have beautiful friends, Kayleigh and kiri finish the equation.
There possibly the best combination of people ive ever met.
I love them.

I love you.

Love♥

Ima hit you from the back, and make you Holla till you passs out.

Im being healthyyyy
and not eating chocolate for a week,
or until i cave
and go crazy
and eat it :)

Everybodys having bad days :(
its bad
but i love my chicks so days cant be that badd


Im bored of all the music on my computerr

My straightners came (L)
Honk, LOL

People are weird :)

Love♥