NAH NAH, NAIII AIIEEEE

:)
partyy time bitches,
raving iot tonight,
shall be goooood :)
going back to the ruislip party will be a major lol :)
and the videos were gunn amake will be sex :)

Gunna start this year messy, messy room, messy hair, messy head. :)
Oh and im gunna be crunk so ;)
got aa nice bottle of smirnof lime to accomppanny me, ich i shalll share, coz im nice like that,
I have nthing cultruerdd or exciting to say right now
EXCEPT MY MUM GOT CHICKENS D:
WHAT IS THIS! A FARM!

Oh and that, after watching twilight, my life seems a tad shit and i wanted to kill myself and become a vampire,
after reading the books it was worse,
i suppose thasts what a good book does right?
make you want to die :|
HA
:)

Im about to read a book called 'Her fearful symmetry' By Audrey *Holy shit what is her last name :|* NEFFENEGGER, HA
Looks ite :)

HOW DID WE GET HERE, I USED TO KNOW YOU SOO WELLL
HOW DID WE GET HERE, WELL I THINK I KNOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW

i think i know

Dont get it twisted...

Last night was crunk :)
i had such a good time,
i love my girls (L)

Get served ;)

They'll never hurt you like i do...

so today was pretty good
i got some yummy ralphy stuff and a new wills hoodie and undies :)
tomorrow will be lovely, seeing the girls for a party and getting some dresses,
i can't wait for new years
gun get crunk (L)

i like that you care,
thank you x

Cheating gets it faster...

so im feeling like a depressive little shit right now,

Christmas felt the furthest from christmas it has ever felt.
I miss my brother,
This was the first year i wasnt excited for christmas

I want to hit something but i wont becuase it would be stupid
I cant help it right now,
I dont feel like myself.

I havent since...

I wish i could be like other people,
i wouldnt care, and id just get on with it.
id always have a good time.
But i guess everyones different.

Im sorry,


Sky's bless, peace out.

dont tell me cause it hurts.

i wish you wouldn't say it
and i didn't have to read it,
and that id never answered
and that everything was normal.
And that this was all simple, black and white.
My head is like a puzzle right now, it needs some untangling.
Its christmas tomorrow, yay.
Right now, im tired,
the only reason i woke up is because i got a text
and i can't get back to sleep

god bless, peace out.

You can search to the furthest reaches of the universe and never find anything more beautiful

i know that love is unconditional,
but i also know that love is unpredictable, unexpected, uncontrolable, unbearable.
Id wish for nothing in exchange...
No gifts
no goods
no acts of devotion,
just your heart, in exchange for mine

How pretty
im going to write a story,
i like writing stories,
or maybe a poem
i don't know

i don't know if this is right, or normal,

why do i all of a sudden feel so intrigued by you?
We'll see

just your heart, in exchange for mine?
I don't do bargains.

dear lord.

ffs.

and the only time i've touched you is in my sleep...

i hope im falling in love,
i think that could be fun :)

my friends are beautiful, like you wouldn't even have an idea on how amazing they truly are
i haven't been so happy in a while and it's lasting
i love everyone :)

and the only thing constant, is the constant reminder she'd never change...

kays was amazing :)
a lovely night in with my girls, just what i needed :)
and ryans was jokes :)
i love our crowd :)
i haven't been happy like this in a while :)
everything is so good :)
love you ALL

you and me...

you make me feel safe
im bare happy :)

I hope we get snowed in tommorow
oh that would be lovely :)


Sorry that my brother gets a tad protective :)
gotta love him though
(L)

so, im finally going out with ryan :)
it hasn't really sunk in yet though.
It still feels like were just friends, but tbh i like that, its not a clingy thing :)
haven't blogged in ages, been crazy busy this week with rehearsals, and i have my shows today :)
so excited :)
love you all

fuck off,
shut up and get out of the room.

Your insulting a tiny part of me everytime.
I keep having panic attacks ffs
im not excited for anything.

woah!
Holy shit :)
can everything just
PAUSE
and go on slomo for a while?
Please?

He and i, had something beautiful...

you make me smile so much,
i don't know how
:)
but you do

so today i got sent out of math to calm down,
was kinda funny :)
kayleigh drew me a beautiful picture :)
and i wasn't dropped in dance,
and i did my DTdetention and it was fine :)
my box is sick babe :P
its all good :)

If he saw me hurt that way...

1. My friends.
2. My family.
3. My house.
4. When its cold ooutside and your inside warm.
5. Movie nights.
6. Coffee.
7. Deep conversations.
8. Butterflies when you see someone.
9. That feelng when your onstage.
10. Peanut butter and nuttella pancakes.
11. When we win.
12. Feeling higher than everything.
13. Parties.
14. Meeting pretty people.
15. Nice clothes.
16. Knit wear.
17. Doubl music on a wednesday.
18. Ialia conti.
19. Finishing something.
20. Laughing.
21. Summer.
22. Hyde park.
23. Starbucks.
24. Music.
25. Blonde hair.
26. High shoes.
27. Stars.
28. Lyrics
29. Getting on with someone you just met.
30. Emotion.
31. La roux.
32. Security.
33. Love.
34. Hate.
35. France.
36. NYC.
37. My dreams.
38. Fridays.
39. Wake up texts.
40. Late night conversations.
41. Feeling pretty.
42. Pictures.
43. Happiness.
44. Seeing people smile.
45. Sorting out peoples lives.
46. Late night car journeys.
47. Hotel rooms.
48. Christmas.
49. My birthday.
50. Getting a text from the person iwant.
51. The blue smartie.
52. Ben and Jerrys.
53. Kayleighs house.
54. Fear.
55. Thorpe park.
56. Welsh accents.
57. American accents.
58. English.
59. Creative writing.
60. Maths class.
61. My girls.
62. When a dress fits you.
63. Getting call backs.
64. Facebook photolikes and comments.
65. The like button.
66. Winter mornings.
67. Partys in the dark.
68. Scary movies.
69. Boys with pretty faces.
70. Pixie Lott.
71. Pretty Underwear.
72. When I paint my nails good.
73. Being drunk.
74. After party sleep.
75. Shows, and how everyone gets on.
76. Tai Chi night (L).
77. Funny people.
78. How blonde I go after my hair has just been bleached.
79. Cheneys mums skills with scissors.
80. Amazing weekends.
81. Picnics.
82. My diary.
83. Presents.
84. Surprises.
85. Nice hair.
86. Boys who smell nice.
87. Fierce cologne.
88. Flat caps.
89. Nick and Noras infinite playlist.
90. 27 Dresses.
91. High tops.
92. Ice cream.
93. Strawberries.
94. Gum
95. Mac cosmetics.
96. Abercrombie.
97. Looking individual.
98. Writing pretty songs.
99. Nights that you wished would last forever.
100. When my heart beats fast.

♥

Last night was amazing
Im to tired to go into detail,
but basically

Thats becutiful.

Every time you leave with her, Something inside of me dies...

so la roux was amazing :)
had such a great night
becca, i love you :)

i wish my phone was fixed, it makes it hard to text you when its not :)

im pretty happy at this second :)
and friends is about to come on ahhhh how i love this show :)
so i love my girls
and a few others...
:)
it's all good baby :)
ciaras tomorrow :)
cant wait
i love everyone :)

when i see you walking with her i have to cover my eyes...

waiting for la roux with becca,
shes taking long :)
and becca just paid 1 fucking 85 for a drink :)
shes pissed
it was watered down
quote: 'do you want ice?'
'no i don't fucking want ice!'
i love you :)
im happy
everything is good :)

It wont ever be the same again,
i just know it
and this time, i mean it

Blogging is becoming an obsession...

Im getting the vibe i am not good enough,
and then reality smacks me round the face.

And its these few moments i really, really breakdown.

What if i dont make it
I just have to
I cant stay here anymore

And im being told, your too young

But maybe thats a soft way of saying, your not good enough

I know im not,
i have to train harder
work better
focus more.

This just has to happen

I cant be 22
I want to be 19 when i finish
then i want to go to America
To the big NYC
and i wanna have a career
And every night
i want to just dance, and everyday
I want to train

And then when the time comes, and im to old to dance

I want to give others the opportunity's i didnt have,
Im going to open a school ,
Its going to be a theater school
Filled with dusty wooden floors and ballet bars and battered mirrors,
and it will be made of red bricks

And im going to take the students with potential, and passion
and it will be state funded, not filled with rich kids.

I think my dreams are to big for me...

Keep this kingdom free of hassle...

Im gunna start looking for the good.
Everything will be better :)

Cheney;

They say that when you love someone you have to let them go...

The truth is i love you more than the world beneath my feet,
Letting you go will be next to impossible,
But i know that you will be happy,
and so for your happiness, i will be happy.
I will look past the distance
and i will see you still living a bus ride away from me.

You are not alone, ever
I am with you always :)

I hope that bath is everything you wish for it to be,
and youll write the most beautiful songs,
and when your famous ill play your songs and remember the times in the hall during double music.

And even if by some small chance we drift apart i know i will always have my twinny (L)

Youve changed me and inspired me.
You looked after me when i drunk too much and got sick, and you tried to stop me saying all those stupid things i said.
You were there when i was going though shit and you picked me back up, like you always do.

Your a part of me.

You are not a sinking ship,
merely a Phoenix rising from the ashes of ruislip
ready to take on what is thrown at you.

''It well may be
That we will never meet again
In this lifetime
So let me say before we part
So much of me
Is made of what I learned from you
You'll be with me
Like a hand print on my heart
And now whatever way our stories end
I know you have re-written mine
By being my friend... ''

Cheney i love you,
x

yeahhhhhh...

So, im just having a bad weekend,
Reading that was just wonderfull.
Why thank you :|.

i need to start sleeping more.

Your not a man, Your just a mannequin...

I hate you.
I hate you so much
like just get the fuck out of my life.


I wannna get into college so bad i think im gunna scream, If i dont get in ill just die
Like everything will be crap

Im not religious,
But im preying for this.

Your a regular decorated emergency...

ooooh,
im so scaredd :(

She like em' tougher than leather...

Its a friday night and im at home
I have no life,
Kayleigh is off at Jobros
and Miss parsons is seeing New moon,
Lucky whores, i want to do both :)
But cheney said shell see new moon again so im gunna drag everyone, so i can see the guy who plays jake (L)
I havent been on the computer for a while so my hands arent working with this keyboard


I dont really have anything left to say.

well, aren't you a delightful little love struck teen
don't worry
it wont last :)
sorry to burst your safe, warm little bubble

forever, forever...

I swear to god
If someone rolls into prom in a sherri hill i will react in one of two ways,
1. I could react by smacking them and them throwing soup over there beloved garment.
Or...
2. I could shoot myself im the face.
People heard me talking about it today and looked it up in class
FFS
Go find your own ideas
stop taking mine.
I swear i have nothing of my own anymore
it shall be the day when people say,
oh my gawd
or
gaaaad
When i know im not myself.
eugh
rant over.

Dear lord, I don't have an eating disorder.

Nodding my head like yeahh, moving my hips like yeahh...

Its all good,
:)
Im happy
Ive drunk so much coffee :)

I have beautiful friends (:
And my life is good at this moment in time,
What more can want :)

Ill be your number one with the bullet...

So this is awkward.
and slow
and silent.

And im guessing you know whats happened,
But you dont have any spine, so you wont admit it,

So im a barbie?
with no friends,
and im stuck up
and you just hate me.
We put on fake smiles to pretend to get on?
Shut up twat.
We dont get along
And i dont pretend to like you.
And for future reference..
No i will not tell you about my personal life. why? because you will tell your skatty friends.
And yes sweetie,
they do care about what goes on in my life.

Take me back to last friday night?
It was good.
Alot better than yestarday.

Dance, this is the way they love...

Had a lovely meal tonight
I love Becca.

I love my girls.

Right now, i feel like Ive been hit by a bus, and like it reversed over me, twice.

Untitled...

Cheney opens my eyes,


I am bored, of sneaky
conniving
manipulative
little bitches.

Because there everywhere, truthfully, i want out,
Of this school,
This place,
This town.

I will be happy when im in a different place.

Because people are idiots,
too consumed within themselves, Open up your eyes and see other people for once in your self absorbed lives.

Just, let it be.

A caffeine kick to get her started...

You make my head go crazy :)

Today was lovely...
I sat in starbucks on regents street, with the beautiful miss Fisher
Enjoying a gingerbread Lattee :)
was gorgeous.

Im now feeling pretty blank,
and i want you to text me.

Have you ever hated yourself for staring at the phone (8)

Wow.
your a giant retard.
You've really out gayed yourself.

Cant wait to be out of this shit town.

Im talking about erry'body getting crunk, boys trynaa to touch my junk...

I dont think im taken seriously,
and i think people think im stupid :/
I know its my fault, i mean
im not smart anymore,
education has failed me disastrously
and only the power of being able to write has stayed :)

i have a feeling that if i get into college im going to flunk out at school
because hey? im in right.
I dont need to worry anymore.
And because of the stupid way my lazy mind works i feel like an idiot.
But its just how i function,
and i cant help that :/
I know i need to get myself into gear and start trying, but its the people who tell me i need to work, such as mamma abbott, that makes me want to not work more.
I think well, if you want me to do it so much, then i wont.
So its best to accept my laziness
and let me fuck my life up.
Because i know everything is gunna work out in the end.

God i wish i wasnt such a dumb shit.
Oh well ill always have my dance and literature to see me through.

This venting didnt help me.

Its the end of the summer, Its the end of it all...

So, mixed feelings are always managing to leave me speechless.
Finding something out like that should make me feel like i just got hit by a bus,
Because im sure the other person is feeling the exact same.
But i didnt
it was maybe more of a poke.
Because i dont care.
ooops sorry.

And then theres YOU
:)
oh dear.
just oh dear.


Ive realised im so indecisive.
Like my mind changes over night
so im scared to say what i should in case i wake up tomorrow and regret it.
And i dont wanna mess with your head.
So ill keep quiet.

I want movie night NOW.
i had my English exam today
IT WAS SO HACKIN LONG

-i just typed that word 7 times before it didn't have a typo :P

yeah injection tomorrow.
I think im gunna be sick
Then ANOTHER GCSE on Thursday.
Ahh dear lord :)
Bring on the weekend though eh?
I think things should get better from here :/
Maybe?

I have stuff in my mind that i cant write anywhere :/
Not in my diary and not on here. My words aren't safe anywhere.
So i need to like find some release somehow. :)

I get random surges of complete happiness.
And i love those feelings.
For about 7 seconds ill feel weightless, like nothing can get me. Or bring me down.
No one can touch me up there.
And then i come back down
and its like ouch.
So i just wait for those moments i want to freeze with my Bernard's Watch :)

I ramble :P
And im sure reading this is boring but if it is SCREW YOU :)

I love you chicks...

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
blah
Ima tell you one time

Ima keep waiting, waiting for the world to change

Oh god, oh god shes really done it now...

ENGLISH EXAM
time for sleep :|

Cheney,
I love you.
Like so much.
And i know your going to be there my WHOLE life, like youll be at my wedding,
and at my funeral ;)
but you wont cry becuase youll know i want you to party :)
But im scared,
im scared to loose you when you move away
im scared that youll find somone better,
more fun,
more blonde?
I know im being stupid
But you mean too much for me to lose you now
I need you here in my life
Or my funeral will come quicker than people will expect :)
I just needed to let you know,
that im scared.
So facebook? Thats whats on my mind.
Cheney i know that we'll always have a connection, no matter where we are.
Because your my light ♥

Haven't blogged in what seems like eternity :)
so everything has gotten amazing
spak is a tard
and we won
agggggggghhhhhhhh i feel so happy right now :)
Friday night was immense, although im toatally shit at xbox games, and Nintendo games
i beat Harley once and i will NEVER FORGET IT.
So everything is good again
no ranting for me today :)
and im off into town later
just PREYING IT DOESN'T RAIN.
ahhh pointe dance in the show,
i felt It yesterday
jeeeze my feet were like,
i dunno in alot of pain :) but it was good so i dont care :)
Fireworks night was well good, i admit it was cold
but i never dress warmly anyway,
as long as we look fiarce hey girlies ;)
but any way it was good and the walk along the manor after was funny :)
UNTIL we got harassed by drunks,
this was after all the boys had left and it was dark :)
but we didnt care,
the night was good
ENGLISH EXAM TOMMORORORWOWWW
eww :)

anyway im gunna bop because im not blogging anything good right now and i just sound like a spaktard:)

Love you muffins ♥

Ive been watching while you sleep...

BABY.

Hmm you read something, and you wonder if its about you?
But if your wrong you look liek an arse?
so you just dont ask

We all work the same darlings,
:)
its wonderfull

Im talking bull :)

and DEAR LORD we won
full on :D
ahh beat you like a pinyata :)

You are my band aid...

Everything should
STOP
and stay still
just for a little while
now THAT would be lovely (L)

Success is a lot to different people. One person may find success is being promoted in there job, or another person may find that success is merely completing a simple task. I suppose it depends on ones opinion or quality of life on how large a scale of success can be. In my opinion success would be simply being able to dance and perform in front of an audience, large or small. And being able to reach the thrill of adrenalin of a show everyday for the rest of my life. But another may think that success is to become everything they have ever wanted to be.

It has been said ‘We were born to succeed, not to fail.’ If this is true, each of us is born with a desire. And a task to completer within our lives. A certain feeling of success will be achieved when this simple or difficult task has been completed, and we have not failed.

People believe that we are behind our own success and only we can change the future ahead of us, but I believe that the people who surround us can help to determine what happens in our life and the e level of success a person can achieve. For example, if a person is surrounded by positive people they will strive to achieve more success than if they are surrounded by negative people.

To succeed, a person must be happy, if the task they are attempting is not one which they enjoy then it will be much harder to achieve the goal ahead of them.

Its so clear now...

I think you should know,
You mean more to me than every single fucking star in this sky.
I would let my dreams fail so that yours could strive.
I cant put into words all the thanks for the late night texts,
You are the one i fall upon when i brake
and you have an incredible strength within you that i totally admire
You are my saving grace Cheney.
I love you.
I depend on you.
You are my shining light.
Full stopped, forever.
Love, i am always here for you,
even though you don't trip up half as much as i do,
on the rare occasion that you fall
i will catch you.
I will never, ever let you hit the ground.

Ill keep you up there.

I am changing,

Trying everyway i can

I am changing,

Ill be better than i am.

Ha well done
you hurt me worse than last time
round of applause for you.

Crush Crush Crush...

You told me you were over me.
So why are you still doing this.
FUCKING HELL

EVERYTHING IS WRONG.

Heart wont beat again...

Tonight,
Was ledge (L)

I wish i could go back to being 7 years old again...

Best lyrics ever written
I want the sundays,
The Fairy house,
The potions,
The muffin board,
The fake news shows,
The memories
I love you
I miss the Old times.

I used to think i love change.
But god i hate it
Nothing settles
Nothing stays
Why am i wasting Fucking tears over this
over
YOU
i let you go
Ive let you go

You okaiii hunniii?...

WELL DONE.
I'm so proud
you won, again

I really hope your happy
that you came along and threw the newly settled leaves in the air.
I hope you enjoy the fact that you've torn the group apart
and i hope you have fun :)

I hate you :)
always have, always will
because shes a life ruiner,
she ruins peoples lives :)

Sit me down, Tell me it will be fine...

One last post before bed
I look at the unfilled out forms on my desk ,
my heart leaps and my stomach turns

oh my god its realisation
what if its too late
why is everyone so organised
I'm LAZY
and i'm gunna pay for it.
i know i will
just give me the easy route?
a way out?
a place where my opinion is valid
where everyone listens and no one cares
i wish the forms were filled,
the check was paid
i wish it was that easy
oh how i wish it was that easy.

So much trouble caused,
one place causing so much trouble.
FORGET

just forget.

I need to find someone beautiful.
who can clear this mixed up head.

Cheating gets it faster...

I swear,
the only reason I'm here is because you think you 'never see me'

and so you've decided to trap me in this fucking house and not let me out
its been five fucking days,
and no i don't want my friends to come here because I'm so hacking BORED OF THIS PLACE.
i hate it when you do this to me
STOP TREATING ME LIKE A CHILD

you piss me off so much
just stop talking to me
i don't even care.

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Oh my god.

I wont be the one to dissapoint you anymore...

Please dont ask me what the following blog is about.
i just need to get this out of my head.

I just watched it back
and thought I'm pure
shit.
Like awful
what am i supposed to do with that eh?
nothing.
get nowhere and do nothing.

STOOPID
HACKIN SWINE.

I'm in a bad mood.
this thing annoys me when you click on blog and it opens in a new tab

IF I WANTED A NEW TAB I WOULD HAVE OPENED ONE.

oh dear god. get me out of this house.

Tired of being sick and tired...

I belive its sleep time...
My blogs like twittttter
x

17 Again
National Treasure
Sixth sense
The Clique
John Tucker Must Die

Oh dear Flik.

Your lipstick, his collar don't bother angel i know exactly what goes on...

Im soo quarantined right now,
LET ME OUTTTTTT D:
i really do love Amy Duffy
She is a wonderful person :)

I can see this week being boring
But Saturday Mumma Abbott is gun' take me to bista
and im gun' get some Ralph Lauren (L)
Yum

I think Stealth is my new word :)
Love you non infested friends
Swine (L)

Wind me up and watch me go...

I AM QUARANTINED. :|

Theres something bout the night, and the way it hides all the things i like...

I dont think ive eveer been so ill.
I feel like death warmed up.
:|

'Cough Cough' Im sick, BOO YOU WHORE.

Im ill
and i gotta pretend im not later
so i can go munch on chinese food
:)
yum times
HALF TERM BAYBE
no school for a week
im freee ;)

Where did you go, where did you go?

Pretty teach me wrong from right...

Today something amazing happened,
So we got basically shunned right?
and it was awful and i was needing a face to punch and it was horrible.
so my girlies and me went to thew hall onto the magical piano.
And we were having a really a really amazing, angry in depth conversation, filled with prophecy's
And that's when Cheney started playing
And it was this beautiful,
summery perfect piece of music,

And i suddenly had this rush of emotion.
and thoughts of summer, and Hyde and picnics and everything being perfect.
And i started crying.

And then everything was clear

It was amazing

Cheney Parsons, if you read this
i want you to know how much you mean to me.
You are my shining light.
I love you.

I miss you...

Darling,
WE WIN
and you fail
though you attempt to win was funny :)
becuase you lost
ooo i love people :D
YOU ARE THE HOLEY CHEESE TO OUR SAUSAGES
:D i love the magical piano :)

Nothing but your Tee Shirt on...

Coz i wanna be close to you,
and i miss you,
and i miss you.

No matter what i say or do, i still feel you here, till the moment im gone...

Something always brings me back to you,
it never takes to long
you hold me without touching,
keeping without chains.

I think that the face the thought of someone can makes me feel safe,
and feel secure is beautiful.

Cheney parsons is wonderful,
Shes on my wave length, and its a hard one to be on :).
she makes me wish i had Bernard's watch, just like id pretend i did when i was little.
and i could take a moment, of utter security, and just pause it.
and i could stay in that moment forever,
like in music :)
i love you Cheney,
Ive found my missing piece.

I hate how i cant read you right now,,
You make me feel a million foot tall
and i love that
i love how you make me feel,
i love how safe i feel around you.
and im sorry for everything.

You loved me coz im fragile,
i thought that i was strong.

Felicity.

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I cant stop ,
Oh i cant stop.
Im going Out in flames.

Im so tired,

I want to sleep for ever,
and yet i dont
becuase if i do, i cant have you

Happy tears,
There like tiny drops off summer,
falling,

Your breath slows, and you take a moment to stop.

Breathe,

Pause.

Look around you,
its beautiful here,
and darling i know you don't see it,
Stop
Breathe
Pause

because its you,
your my summer.
So please,
keep falling.

You are my light,

You get that feeling,
its crushing,
raging,

It pierces you deep and makes your chest go tight,
your breathing is stuttered and short.
You gasp,
a tear;
your underwater,
falling deeper,

And you cant reach the surface.
Until one, tiny piece of light
reaches you
and rips you back to the surface.
With strength unimaginable,
beautiful.
You are my shining light.

- For you, Cheney ♥

Today was so immense,
fullstopped

WHAT ARE YOU DOING
gett ouuttt
ruinn everything then

Tired of being what you want me to be...

I keep getting this sudden rush of emotion,
Like i want to laugh completely crazily and then cry for hours

Anddd i know why
and i dont like it at all
Gunna get a punching bag with your face on it
:)
FUCK ITTTTTT
all offf ittt
seriously, i wont know these people in 10 years
so fuck you all.
ha :)

Minus my girls, and a few others, there stinking with me,
the rest of you, fuck you all.

And soon, your all gunna wanna be like this,
and were gunna tell yuo to get out when you come running,
EMOTION,
its weird :)

You loved me coz im fragile...

I thought that i was strong,

You touched me for a little while,

Now all my fragile strength has gone.

I'm stuck,
In a glass room.

I see figures and shapes on the outside, but there reflections are blurred,
I beat my fists against the glass trying to breakthrough,

to get their attention,

but i receive no response.

Looks of disgust are thrown in my direction as i try and breakout,
I am told i have to be happy, And cannot carry on how i have been.
Well, I'm through pretending.
And i will shatter this glass if your not careful.

P.s- I have nothing to write here.

I cba to blog, i have to be in the mood, and im not init Blahh Im so wining this fight :) ha

Threatened?

-HA no.

I got my shhooot picturesss

Your fingertips across my skin....

Ive been having panic attacks.

I miss you love...

Woww :D
Its all changing,

And its soo good :)
I think everythings good right now :)

Ahh happy :)

I love you...

My mind is dead.

Its you...

I had the most wonderful day :)

I got my pointe shoes,
I ate the yummiest waffle in covent garden, which might i add, Is possibly the most colourful place in the world.
I listened to mood music,
We asked for it to rain, and it did
I drunk a Starbucks and had humous.
I laughed,
I laughed some more
and then some more,
We thanked pie men.
And there was just so much more,

I cant even put into words how much I wanted timer to just stand still when we were sat on the cobbled streets.
It was like, we could have forgotten everything else and just sat there, watching everyone. London is such a colourful place, its somewhere you can be yourself, and no one will take a second glance,
Somewhere you Can be yourself.

Ahh I cant wait to be living in the city.

Love you whorecakes.

Love?♥

Baby make it too me...

Last night was so good, I'm not gunna lie
I laughed so much :)

We actually suck at watching movies, and i made myself sound like a total tard
but i dont care :)

Cozzz the people are amazing :)
I beat Harley at plank ACHIEVEMENT MUCH.

But i didnt beat Ryan at clapping push ups .evil1. TOUCHE.
:)

I thought open season was over the hedge, and didnt realise it wasnt till the moovieee finished :D

So tbh yesterday was good :D

IM GOING ON/EN POINTE BITCHES :D
Yes mashed up feet here i come ;)

So im going to get my shoes today
and im buzzing :D

LOVE YOU CHICKS - i feel like loving this shitty world today :)
Free hugs sign im thinking :)

Love?♥

Fuck you. Fuck you very very much.

I have teeth marks in my thumb

and i need to hit something.


Cheney where are you :(

I know in my heart its not you....

So beautiful,

Ive been walking through the city,
and its alright,
its alright.

And Ive been walking through the city
and its all gunna be fine tonight.

Everything is changing
my darling,
were falling.

And everything is changing,
just tell me, can we stall this?

Where do we go from here?
Where do we go from here?
Where do we go from here?
Where do we go from here?

Come and run with me, come and run with me
I don't wanna loose you in the lights, loose you in the lights
Take my hand and hold your breath,
Its a start its a new beginning darling.

You've been talking about freedom
Freedom, you don't need it.

Ive been watching you sleep,
Watching you sleeping.

Tossing and turning,
Dreaming and screaming.

You've been talking about freedom
Freedom, you don't need it.

Where do we go from here?
Where do we go from here?
Where do we go from here?
Where do we go from here?

Come and run with me, come and run with me
I don't wanna loose you in the lights, loose you in the lights
Take my hand and hold your breath,
Its a start its a new beginning darling.

Open up your eyes,
Screaming at me,

Open up your mind,
I'm screaming at you.

Open up your eyes,
Screaming at me,

Open up your mind,
I'm screaming at you.

Come and run with me,
I don't wanna loose you in the lights,
Take my hand and hold your breath,
Its a start its a new beginning darling.

Come and run with me, come and run with me
I don't wanna loose you in the lights, loose you in the lights
Take my hand and hold your breath,
Its a start its a new beginning darling.


♥

Its a start, Its a new begging darling...

So yesterday
me and Cheney wrote something gasp worthy :)

Her piano skills, and my lyrics go together like, likeee,
two things that go really, really well together.

So yesterday, a child in the world of music was born ♥
And one dayy yourr all gunna wanna see it :)

the lyrics will be up when i can be fucked to type them.

Everythings good.

Love?♥

P.s- Saturday ♥

Somehow, everythings gunna fall, right into place...

Somethings there :)


And its making me smile :)

Love?♥

Wish youd never looked at me that way...

Stop talking to me about her.

Laaaaaaaaa
Today was okay :)
it was weirdly ho0t for the fact it was raininginging :)
I'm hungry, feeelinng a rice cake :)

I WANT CHOCOLATE SO BAD D:


Love?♥

When i caught myself, I had to stop myself...

Can you just fucking hurry up and ask :|

I know i need to make up my mind soon,
Rather than loose this.

I don't know what i want (8)

♥

Defence is paper thin...

So who knows,

i might have this problem,

But i have my girls, and there more amazing than they know.

I love you all,
thank you for everything over these years

You wont ever know what you did, but you all did it.

I'm finally happy in who i am, and its thanks to you.

I love you all.
♥

Separates always better when there's feeling involved...

Lets be honest, maybe if you'd actually done what you wanted,

taken control,
taken a risk,

maybe you wouldn't feel how you do now.

And things might be different.
But you didn't.

So its all your fault.

I hope you have fun.

-

My neck is hurting from breakdancing. Its not right to stand on your head. lets be honest.


I need to talk to cheney.

Love?♥

p.s-Fuck you.

Tonight was good,

I missed cheney
And the films were crap :)
but i liked the company,
the people were funny and ,although i got slapped by pizza. It wass fun :)

Yes slapped by pizza.

Flik- makes a comment to Harley
Harley-Are you mocking me?
Flik- laughs
Harley- SLAPS FLIK IN THE FACE WITH A SLICE OF PIZZA.

anyway :)
i laughed and got it of f:P
it was rather amusing tbh.


And Kiri was there to help me clean it off, shes helped alot of people clean things eh kayleigh ;)

weell...
my head isnt any clearer than it was, but i dont mind, becuase maybe some things are supposed to tie you up in knots :)
And sometimes i think, if something menna happen it will happen. But maybe i better grab hold of the reigns for a little while, see where it takes me :)

Contis wass amazing, as per usual :)

Ive been up for 17 hours and believe its time to sleep.
Night losers


Love?♥

-p.s, i hate it when your hurting

So maybe...

Your gunna be the one that saves me...

"Desicions, Desions."

Chances ive taken, and chances lost.
And it all leaves us with regret right?
and regret is bitter.

And when your bitter, its just not good.
Cause it leads to you thinking about too much
and then you wonder


What would have happened if?...

And im thinking that alot lately.


Love?♥

I lie a little more, baby im helpless...

Mmmm soo the last few days have been shit
but i think im goo dnow :)

Last night wasnt great, once again haha
i sometimes think that i should set my computer alight,
but pffft no.


Jamiiesss on saturday :) it should beee goooowedddd
My brain is so dead


Hoping tommorow will sort it out a bit,
or so i preyy it will :)


I tire of people so quickly, i know it isnt good and that i shouldnt but i cant help it :/ few people i wont EVER got bored with
coz there lovely
♥

I got IDA in honk me and kiri are best feiends MAH :D

I cant wait for danicing tommorw
it makes me soo happy :)
and i alwasys come home with a clearer headd coaz i dotn think about any crap for a whole 9 hours :)

Allkrightt chickassss
Im writing lyrics atm,
mstly to venbt but who knowss somthing good could come of this :)


Ahahah i wish people wouldnt talk to me sometimes, like if you wanna kjnow something just ask, SNEAKY WHORE :)

Love?♥

-you are my band aid.

Dont you know who you are? Your my shooting star...

YOU MAKE MY BRAIN HURT
like seriously


I need to start making decisions

Coz this sucks.
And its just going to keep repeating itsself
OVERRR
AND
OVERR


and dont talk to me for that reason. Your an idiot, and no i will not talk to you.
I love my girls ♥

Love?♥

So i guess ive never been one to have the perfect best friend

Ive always been shortchanged,
Short tempered, moody, cut throat. Bitch.

But i no longer have this.
I have amazing friends.

Miss cheney parsons, You are truly wonderful. Im not gunna lie your confident as anything. So i got home yesterday and i just sat there crying. and you were there for me, and i dont think youll ever know how much that meant.
Ive felt like i was dropping, but you know how to pick me back up. And one day ill do the same for you, you can take my word for that ♥ And when were living it big in the city we wont ever get too lost in the lights for each other. I love you.

I guess its amazing to know that you have beautiful friends, Kayleigh and kiri finish the equation.
There possibly the best combination of people ive ever met.
I love them.

I love you.

Love♥

Ima hit you from the back, and make you Holla till you passs out.

Im being healthyyyy
and not eating chocolate for a week,
or until i cave
and go crazy
and eat it :)

Everybodys having bad days :(
its bad
but i love my chicks so days cant be that badd


Im bored of all the music on my computerr

My straightners came (L)
Honk, LOL

People are weird :)

Love♥

You can take your time, take my time...

P.S
today i nearly bit thorough my finger

sstoopid biting fethish:|

:) love♥

So im blogging alot right now


Todayy was not a good day for anyone
Miss parsons i love you
Kayleigh i love your hands, but im ddorry :D
and ALICIA you fat, i LOVE YOU FAT CHEEEKS

these people make my day :)

We got water thrown at us :|

Hmmmm i have alot to think about :)
I think i need to be less jelous, but im a girl, whacha gunna do?
Were all posessive right.

Im being healthy atm
its good

I have to change my textiles CW becuase my teacher :@

and i realised i rant alot :)

ahaha
One good thing todayy wasssss
thatt
imm
getting singing lessons at schgool
wow.
my day was shit
:)
Love ♥

That everyone i knew was waiting on the que, to turn and run but all i needed was the truth...

Today i read something that made my heart bounce


And it made me think i take alot of stuff for granted.
so from RIGHT NOW. im gunna change

Why should i let people mak me feel how they do?

my E is playing up

I want to take eveyday as it comes
and not let little things get me down.
I have amazing friends, and im finding that right now i have more amazing ones than i thought.

♥Love.
Felicity.

The august sky will then bare witness, to a brand new chapter with torn up pages...

I hope there someone out there who can bring me back to you...

I think there is a pretty lyrics in every single song

I feel bored
i was told, by my friend in utah, to write about my friend in UTAH.
I quote, "I have this friend Drake who is amazing. And handsome. And smart and funny. And pure perfection. :)"

From his own text :)
douche holeee


Im singing in assembly next week

Today i got locked inside my conservatory

Ive deleted my DT work

Im boreeddd


and me and kayleigh have a nerw word


- hivacal

Magic eh? ;)


I shouls sleep,
Coz ryan purposly leaves me bored on MSN, LOSER

hell yes i spelt it rightt


LoveLove
Felicity.

Oh and P.S...

i think tonight, my mum finally realised hwo much i want to go to college

And that this is the only path i want to take

..


alsoo
You infuriate me. Get out.

This is my life today...

I was told to blog again...
I love my freiends, there amazing

cheneys room is haunted

contis is amazing

and i still havent done my CW

People have turned out differnt than how i thought they would be and i like it :)

I want more parties coz its boring without them :)

Pixie lotts songs are amazing.

ive been told if i take dance for Alevels i ca go to NYC in the summer,

But i still choose colege


Ive been spelling the word loser and lose wrong my entire life.

You meet wonderfull people on FB aha

Justin Bieber is the most amazing thing on this earth.
Bar other stuff :)

I fiannly ordered new straightners

I have to sing in assembly next week


I need more hats

I hatw it when my doors open.

Kiri has amzing onliners

Facebook is broken

I cant finish books atm

I dont make promises anymore :)

I cant think of anything else to write


LoveLove.
Felicity.