This world,
the one we live in
yeah. its fucked,

I would delete your fucking number if i didnt need you so bad sometimes.

Fucks sake.

Ps, my boyfriend, is. amazing.
Ive sorted stuff out with my twin♥

Ive made the bast friends.
shits looking up

probably more than everr,
weve all changed so much though,


and how the fuuuck could i forget it man,,
do it righttt now, that song was like my lifeee mann

thatss so amazing,
♥

its cool y'no, i miss the old times too,
i think we all doo,

maybe we all just got a bit mixed up, and maybe we grew up a bit too fast,
probably one of the weirdest situations ive been in


come and run with me, i dont wanna lose you in the light, take my hand,
its a start its a new begining baby

i didnt forget ♥

♥


i agree,



i FUCKING love colleege

bring me sunday
today was a joke
the show was shit
i feel sick

yh

Don't go thinking my life is shit or anything
My lifes sick, I've met some amazing people at college and I finally feel like I can be myself around them, it's like I've spent the last 5 years being someone I'm not. But it don't matter now because I'm myself :) and I have the best friend ever and she's amazing and keeps me going always
Despite this everything is going to get hard, and there's gunna be times where I don't leave my house, and I don't go to collegeand I might turn up on you're doorstep in hysterics, but your gunna have to put up with me.
I might just be okay.

Interview today, hope it goes good.

You make me want to punch a hole, into my face, you inconsiderate, dirty, arrogant whore.

How do you do that shit
Fuck you man.

People talk so much bull, all the time. You can suck my dick. lol

Its only going to get harder from now on.
I feel so drained at the moment, like its an effort to even smile, its just one of those weeks right? wrong.
This pain is really, fully shit and totally real.
Im making up for all the times i let you down, that i wasnt there, that you thought i didnt care.
You say its all going to be okay, we both know its not. But neither of us will admit it.

I love you so much.
Im sorry.

You dont even have a clue, all you have to worry about is school work and what your gunna wear tommorow,
So stop fucking complaining,
this was all for the best
fucking cunt.

:'(

I had a re think.

1. My friends.
2. My family.
3. My house.
4. When its cold ooutside and your inside warm.
5. Nights watching Movies.
6. Coffee.
7. Deep conversations.
8. Butterflies when you see someone.
9. That feelng when your onstage.
10. Peanut butter and nuttella pancakes.
11. Becca and Georgia.
12. Feeling higher than everything.
13. Parties.
14. Meeting pretty people.
15. Sam.
16. Knit wear.
17. Memories.
18. Ialia conti.
19. Finishing something.
20. Laughing.
21. Summer.
22. Hyde park.
23. Starbucks.
24. Music.
25. Blonde hair.
26. High shoes.
27. Stars.
28. Lyrics
29. Getting on with someone you just met.
30. Emotion.
31. La roux.
32. Security.
33. Love.
34. Hate.
35. France.
36. NYC.
37. My dreams.
38. Fridays.
39. Wake up texts.
40. Late night conversations.
41. Feeling pretty.
42. Pictures.
43. Happiness.
44. Seeing people smile.
45. Things working out.
46. Late night car journeys.
47. Hotel rooms.
48. Christmas.
49. My birthday.
50. Getting a text from the person i want.
51. The blue smartie.
52. Ben and Jerrys.
53. Thigh High Socks.
54. Fear.
55. Thorpe park.
56. Welsh accents.
57. American accents.
58. English.
59. Creative writing.
60. Amersham and wycombe college.
61. The friends ive got left.
62. When a dress fits you.
63. Getting call backs.
64. Facebook photolikes and comments.
65. The like button.
66. Winter mornings.
67. Partys in the dark.
68. Scary movies.
69. Boys with pretty faces.
70. Pixie Lott.
71. Pretty Underwear.
72. When I paint my nails good.
73. Being drunk.
74. After party sleep.
75. Shows, and how everyone gets on.
76. Tai Chi night (L).
77. Funny people.
78. How blonde I go after my hair has just been bleached.
79. Cheneys mums skills with scissors.
80. Amazing weekends.
81. Picnics.
82. My diary.
83. Presents.
84. Surprises.
85. Nice hair.
86. Boys who smell nice.
87. Fierce cologne.
88. Flat caps.
89. Kisses under the covers.
90. 27 Dresses.
91. High tops.
92. Ice cream.
93. Strawberries.
94. The feeling you give me.
95. Mac cosmetics.
96. Abercrombie.
97. Looking individual.
98. Writing pretty songs.
99. Nights that you wished would last forever.
100. When my heart beats fast.

i dont think ive ever been so afraid in my whole life.
ever.

oh fuck

i cant even describe this,
dear god let this be okay



ometimes i wish we could just pretend even if only for one weekend, so comeone, tell me, is this the end.

I just cry
all the time
and i have every reason to!
so please stop asking if im okay, becuase no im not

And you, you dont fucking care.

i hate everything right now
im angry and sad and frustrated and so fucking depressed all the fucking time
i have to write a speach

i just want to get swallowed up by the world
im such a failiur.