But I know in time that people change
I was foolish to think we'd stay the same
But I don't wanna loose my best friend
Tell me if this is love or am I just to comfortable

Its your grace, and how it keeps me grounded.

I don't think i will ever intentionally change,

i mean, i h ave changed, and I'm totally aware of this, Ive grown up

changed my hair a bit

i talk differently

But the way in which i react to situations and the choices i make will probably never change,

I will always get angry,

and make the 'irresponsible' choice in your eyes,

But not being funny, I'm living and I'm happy,

and in my life i only have one regret.

So after 16 years I'm pretty proud of myself, I haven't fucked up my life, I did fucking good in my GSCE's seeing as i was barely in school and when i was in school i was either asleep or daydreaming.

I don't want to be boring, i watch people like you, i watch you wishing away your life, always waiting for something. But sometimes you cant always wait. You have to grab the reigns and pull on them tight until you take off. Sitting around waiting doesn't get you anywhere.

I don't believe you have to work for everything though, sometimes, quite often i have found, things will just fall into place, whether its slowly or in seconds. You just have to think, every things going to be alright.

So get plastered and fall over, coz in the end who gives a shit? If your laughing no one will care.

Never regret anything that made you smile.

So i will try a bit harder to be less of a cunt, in 6th form I'm going to keep out of drama, keep away from people who i don't like or who will bring me down and just be me.

I'm not changing though, I promise.

As long as you keep a person down, some part of you has to be down there with them, so it means you cannot soar as you otherwise might.

Kiss me, K-K-Kiss me, infect me with your love and fill me with your poison.

Take me T-T-Take me, wanna be a victim ready for redemption .

faaacking hell

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I hope you realise how your acting.

I just suddenly got over whelmed with this weird feeling that i cant even describe,
so ima write it out with pictures,
maybe that will do it.-

You must not know bout me

And keep talking that mess, that's fine
But could you walk and talk at the same time?

I actually wonder sometimes why people are such dick heads,
like im not being funny,
just be a decent person
its not hard, im managing just fine
Fucking hell.

On a happier note-
I didnt realise how sweet you are,
or how much youd care
thank you, for everything.

And as for you.
I couldnt live without you
found what i was missing.

and I love it all.

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this is basically everything right now.

Thats M-O-N-E-Y so sexy ii,

im so confused about what to do with my life,
i cant go to college this year and maybe i cant go next year, who know if ill get funding or not :/
and id rather gaudge my eyes out with a pen thgan go 6th form.
so i might take some beauty courses this year, get my make up artist course down maybe a hair course too, anything to fall back on if all else fails.
but i dont know where to go :/
FML.

Let you put your hands on me

In my skin tight jeans,
be your teenage dream tonight,

I feel grown up for once,
like, my lifes kinda sorted out right now,
I have everything i need, and currently there is minimal drama,
I like not having drama in my life, its so 'year 10' oh she said this he did this, like shut the fuck up.
I was talking to harry about our year and like everyone needed to just grown the fuck up, and some people still do, seriiously, im not trying to sound all mature and shit but were in 6th form now, get over it haha,
and some people are just so extra, i cant deal with them,

But my life is great
and im happy.

Quick post, im going out.

Im getting back into bloggind, its good.
Righhht so im getting my life on track a bit, booking the course monday, sending my forms off soon too.
Today i went to poojas, uits was good, saw some people.
Im going to becca now, then sams.
busy busy,

You loved me coz im fragile, i thought that i was strong

This time, maybe ill do it.
Im taking a pre-audition course at urdang, this should help me see what they want
I need to be what they want?

I had insecurities, you showed me i am beautiful

it was one of those nights you wished never ended.
Lassoed the moon and the stars and pulled that rope tight

Im standing here before you with my heart in my hands.

So I read this quote once right?
And it spoke about how the first time you fall in love you give everything, that person has the whole of you, your quirks, your habits, your dysfunctional personality and all the parts you love about yourself. It's all theirs, your completely naive enough to give away your whole heart and your whole self until you no longer own any of it. But when it ends -which lets be honest, it will, nothing lasts- you have nothing left of yourself. And you have to re build yourself as this new lone person, and you may sit thinking ' do i like potatoes?' because you don't remember if the person who was there, before you gave away everything, really did like potatoes, or the sound of rain on the pavements, or the smell of grass. So when you fall in love again you cannot give everything, because you've given it all away before, you know better this time; you cant give away everything you gave away before because a part of you, no matter how tiny that part may be, is still left with your first ever love.
This tiny part of you that believes it really can last forever, and that the person really is totally perfect for you and they can't ever hurt you. This one part remains with the person, refraining you from ever giving as much as you first gave.
Well i don't want to give everything for you not to give as much.
But i need to make the mistake to know not to do it again.
People keep saying to me, hold a part of yourself back, don't give away everything. To be completely honest with you I don't know how to, its all or nothing I'm afraid.
So watch out.

Good boy`

so im just sat here with fish
cornwall was lush
cba for long blog posts-
so heres my life ina nutshell
girls
boyfriend
cornwall
tan
danicing
allow.