Looking back now and theres so much i wish i could change if i could. Reget is the worst feeling ever. Becuase you just think what if. What if i protected you better, maybe if i stayed up late with yuo and sheltered you and stopped you, maybe we'd be in a different place. But i didnt, so i cant change that.
I wish i had the courage to say all these things i want to. The im sorrys, the I love you's the thank yous. Becuase i think what if i died tomorrow, like, would you cry? or would you just think ' oh were not that close anyway'
i know ive changed, but i had to. like now im happy, i am finally myself, and im making less and less mistakes, Becuase im a big girl now. Recently ive learnt how to deal with alot. And im trying to fix things, i really am. I just have these temptattions that are had to push aside. But i do coz im stronger now than i was then, so i have a shout. write it in my diary. Have a cry. Breathe and move on. What else can i do.
Ive lost alot, and believe me i know what ive lost.
shit happens though right?
not to everyone.
Dont lose it all in the blur of the start.
Seeing is decieving, dreaming is believeing,
Its okay not to be okay,
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